Thinking too much...

... Sometimes I have so many ideas, words, pictures, thoughts & feelings going round and round in my head, that it's just too much - it can get so overwhelming...

Nowadays, I nearly always carry a pen, notebook & camera with me, and it definitely helps to get some of it out of my head by writing it down on paper...

Sometimes though, the thoughts keep coming, and I have to go out for a walk to try to clear my head. That's just what I did today, but even then, the thoughts wouldn't stop, so I had to sit down on a bench for a while, and write until my mind quietened down...

I took the photos in this post when I was wandering around Tynemouth. I've always loved watching the waves crash over the pier - I remember being taken there often when I was a child - I was never very enthusiastic about walking along the pier, beacuse it was always so cold & windy ... but I was quite disappointed that the gates were locked today, and I had to make do with gazing between metal railings...



Anyway, here are some snippets of what was going round in my head today:

...Sometimes I think I take myself a bit too seriously.

Sometimes I think I take everything too seriously.

Sometimes, I think I think too much.

Sometimes, I seem to get lost in my thoughts.

Sometimes, I think I need to spend less time thinking

And more time being...  

But maybe thinking is being?...

It's late afternoon.

I'm sitting here,

By the pier,

On a bench

In the late October sun.

It feels strangely warm

But, at the same time, cold.

I listen to the roaring sea.

It feels alive;

Real.

I feel alive;

Real.

I watch ships come and go.

I watch people come and go.

'What is their story?'

I wonder.

'How do they feel?'

I feel the wind on my face.

I feel alive

And somehow

Everything makes sense.

But, at the same time,

Nothing does.

How does that feel?

Maybe, I think,

Maybe

It feels real

- Whatever that is ...

It doesn't really make sense, does it?! ... But it doesn't have to! - And that is so liberating!...